During this phase I was on a spiritual quest to discover who I was in relationship to discovering God’s purpose for my life. I’d had been using drugs—everything from pot and LSD to heroin since Vietnam. Because I’d been mixing drugs and religion together, I’d become very deceived and was now opening myself up to the spiritual maze of beliefs of the early 70s.
In Vietnam, I’d had an enormous spiritual experience that awakened my spiritual senses. Me and my buddies began to get into Jesus and the Bible while still using drugs but the seeds of Christianity were being planted in my life.
I grew up in Wenatchee, Washington with apple orchards all around me. My parents were Christians and attended church every Sunday, which meant my three brothers, two sisters, and I went along, too.
Our church didn’t believe in going to movies, dances, playing cards, or even going to carnivals. Combined with living out in the country, we grew up without much social life, causing me to be socially awkward with an introverted personality, from which I developed somewhat of a rejection complex.
In Vietnam, I began to crave acceptance and was drawn to those who were involved with drugs and considered outcasts with whom acceptance came easy. As a result, I became heavily involved with drugs for the next four years.
By 1974, I’d come to the end of myself and lost touch with reality when the goodness of God intervened and led me to repentance. Over the previous years, I had close encounters with God’s grace, but was continually resisting. Like the fish with the hook in his mouth that continually fights the tug of the line until it’s finally worn out from the battle and then is easily caught, so was I in the hands of the Lord. The battle for my soul was over. I was too tired and worn out to resist any longer. I simply surrendered to what God wanted to do.
In retrospect, I know that God had His hand on my life. I continually stand in awe and am so appreciative for all He’s done in my life. His compassion and loving-kindness when I was a lost and wandering soul has caused me to have a deep love for Him and His Kingdom and keeps me continually looking forward to what He’s going to do next!
It’s been over 40 years since I surrendered to Jesus Christ. If God is trying to hook you, too, give up the fight and let Him reel you in! The amazing peace and contentment that comes from knowing Him is worth giving Him your all!